Family and "friends"

So, I figured I'd give this blog thing a shot again. Sometimes I just need an outlet to get things off my chest since I tend to harbor feelings and it tends to turn into resentment. I feel like I'm turning into a loner. I don't have many friends, 1-2 at the most who I can say are my real friends. One of which refuses to come see me since I've moved out of Louisville, she refuses to leave the county, and the other does come down when she's going to her dad's place. I hate it, why should I make the trips to see her when she don't come see me? The other one was friends with Nathan and that's how I met her, she's come and visited us, but her baby daddy/bf is kinda a douche and only cares about himself, and won't pay her phone bill but will his. He works if you any to call it that, he's a convicted felon and is using her, so I have no way to get ahold of her. The other person I thought was my friend only likes to talk about herself, brags on things she gets, puts my husband down bc she feels he don't deserve his VA disability check bc he didn't deploy. Wtf does that matter if he didn't deploy? He still served our country, was injured in combat training, went to NTC, was getting on the plane for Iraq and they pulled him off and said he couldn't go. Oh, I forgot to mention she's Mexican, and is one of those stuck up Mexicans who thinks that everyone owes her something. I know this is harsh, but I can't wait til her husband gets out of the Army and they fall flat on their @$$es, and she has to go through what we did when he got out. We almost lost everything. Had to live in a one bedroom house, had a car repossessed, had to file bankruptcy, he went three months with out a job and no income until he started receiving his VA checks. It sucked. It's been two and a half years since we filed bankruptcy, and we are just now able to afford things again. He got a job on post, and we bought, well owner financed a place, have two nice vehicles, are trying to get his credit score up to buy the house we really want with a basement and fenced yard. She doesn't know what having it hard is. She constantly puts me down, and I'm done with her! I don't trust people easily, I miss having a lot of friends, I wish I knew why people don't like being around me. Its like when i hot married, I lost friends, when we moved back from Texas I lost even more friends, I thought when we moved back our friends we did have before we moved would want to hang out and stuff, WRONG! Even my in laws don't want anything to do with Nathan or me unless its a holiday. But, it don't seem to bother him, but it does me. My own family, with the exception of my parents could care less about me. My Mom's sister tries to tell me how to live my life, puts Nathan down, and talks bad about my kids, eff that! My cousins always try to one up me, and tell me I'm raising my kids wrong, and well, my "sister" don't even exist to me. So, with that being said, the only family that I need are my parents, husband, and our awesome boys.